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i don't know why you're not messaging me
but i do hold the policy of only replying messages now
because i am flooded with smses so much sometimes i feel
like i need to have two numbers
then again, i see no point in carrying two handphones
makes me seem like a total clown

so thankyou very much
now that i assume you have your emotions of me (that was stirred up) cleared
up
and that you don't like me at all (haha)
and i don't feel awful about it (like how i might feel last time)
because i know there's so much more about life than just you
you're like 5 percent of my life (least to say it, with all due respect and no hard feelings)

and why should i really care so much if the 95 percent is made up of other people
and other commitments in life

i get to meet new people every week
i get to make new friends every week

and i am so damn glad i am having this one hell of a life
why do i not feel anything more than the slightest feel of that everything has just gone to a waste
or that somehow
you have left me alone without even explaining
that you might as well call me sensitive
but i wouldn't care to cont. an agrument
for this perilious state will go haywire
and that i probably wouldn't get mad
but disappointed that that's how you still see me despite the years

and go ahead love your bf
i am sure he will not dump you when i might probably dump you for other girls
when i get bored, say tad alittle now.

you won't get mad i am sure because you have 0 for me
and i don't even feel the urge to flame or exert any energy in smsing you
asking whats up today?
like it's such a rhetoric question
when i am busy thinking of what to do on my weekends

so you can probably live your own life; go and make love to your bf
and i will just stride along the sidewalks
as i enjoy the fullest of life

what more can i ask?
to ask you if you still like me?

hell no
i am not even in the kneeness of mind for that question to pop up
because
i don't think anything matters anymore
that i have given you enough time

and for now
this blog is down

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dear, mute and numb

i am having an off day on friday !
and i might be going to zouk on friday night
might say 30 percent chance
then saturday,
probably gonna meet up with ivy for her cookies
then kevin and co.

then sunday try to meet up with sophia and church.

okay
okay
okay
i'm bored
do you even care?

THE PINK SPIDERS

i cannot tolerate arty farty who acts as though they are a bunch of trendsetters who inject style in whatever they wear and do, ie i have got afro hair-do.
you don't have to write a sign board " look i am cool "
we all know who is and who isn't
like what's so cool about trying to take up theatre studies and end up being broke all your life
i don't see the potential of becoming an artiste unless you have the looks of a A graded celebrity
and what more,
singapore looks at paper more than any other country i dare say
so you're thinking you're cool and we're not
think again

just be who you're
and stop walking around like it's a catwalk fashionshow,
won't you people ever feel tired
i feel tired looking at you people.
yeah.

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Kiss Of A Rose

i'm still down with flu
and that sucks

i just hope that i will feel much better when back in camp
and i am yet another jubilant jester to make new friends every week

life's a blaze
and i found this wine and dining area at rochester park
near dover area
it's pretty much like place to chill out in the park, and it's pretty reasonable.
11 dollars for house pours and 15 for crackers

http://www.onerochester.com

MUST GO ONE DAY


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Dance dance

lesson number 1: make sure she doesn't have flu


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i want to have fun every night.

The Amateur Party Animal

people actually think i am a seasoned party animal who goes clubbing every week.
looks can be so deceiving
especially when it comes to me.

and oops
i forgot your name
sorry.


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I SHOWED HER BY O-TOWN

It's catching up to me right now
Everything that I've said
The night I left her there
When I said I wanted out
I was angry and upset
And at the time
I could care less about staying there
I had to prove I didn't care
As much as she thought I did

[chorus:]I showed her
I let my pride take me
Far away from the only woman I loved
I showed her
Now she has found someone new
And her life will go on
And I'm all aloneBut I showed her
Oh oh oh
I hate that she's in love
But it took a while for her to get over the hurt
Now I know that I messed up
I was trying to give us time
But I see she took that time to find somebody else
What happened to the things she felt for me
Am I really a part of her past

[chorus:]I showed herI let my pride take me far away
From the only woman I loved
I showed her
Now she has found someone new
And her life will go on
And I'm all aloneBut I showed her
Woah oh oh's

[chorus]Now she has found someone new
And her life will go on
And I'm all alone
But I showed her

YOUNG RICH AND MAYBE FAMOUS;
ZOUK OR BUTTER FACTORY?

it's been sometime since i stepped into the dancefloor and hear the HI-FI STEROES BLASTING AWAY
hahaha.
i like clubbing; i like dancing; i like reaching the climax and then stay there for a poo while;
and everything seems so real to me
besides,
it's pretty nice getting piss drunk then high then you forget all your fucking problems.

I'm only human to be human (does anybody ever know?)
you say i've got abundance in ego
words are deceiving
words are tools one use to mask one's mightyself
words are never to be taken into deep consideration especially when one use them to mask one's feelings
and i have ZERO ego
when i am not the one
when i could actually be the one
then
i think i am always losing this losing battle; (now you know this BIG EGO guy is all but just a mannequin standing perfect not until you see his heart bleeds for you)
do you know how down i am everytime i know you're with him
or talking to him,
picture you being with him (and it's not your fault. i understand of course).
i dont think you can ever imagine the pain, the anguish,
the silent killing of my heart.
i don't even think trying your best to put yourself in my shoes
can make me feel any better
i would feel uh-huh,
thankyou (but nevertheless i appreciate it)

you always ask me if i am okay? (and i don't know how you ever guessed it well enough)
that's quite a rhetoric question
because somehow i will have the character and courtesy (because it's me) to tell you i'm but i may not be okay
because it's not fair that i am going to ruin your day (whoever you're with) because of me
i don't want you to feel guilty;
to feel as though you're shortchanging me in some ways
and inject a mood of solemn moodiness on your day
so i always crack yet another weak smile
and tell you "oh of course i am fine!" with such enthusiam and energy that i somehow cannot explain (white lie?)
probably i am quite the elephant thick skinned egoistic fellow on the surface?

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do you know that
i am always bitting my tongue through this
do you know that
what makes a man greather than the other?
to see part of him losing to another
and yet
able to walk up confidently,
crack a weak failing smile
and tell anybody

" it's alright, you enjoy your day i won't spoil it = ) "

" i am okay, it's alright, i am just concerned.. = ) "

that's a greater greater man
for myself (you don't have to feel sorry or do anything for me)

( anyway a blog's to vent your feelings because there's nowhere else in the world i would like to scream my head off at, so don't feel obliged to do something ie, ignore me ; i will be : ( )

: )
and i am all smiles
that tonight i am so gonna rock hard. HAHA (actually am not)
i sound so emo-maniac
; but actually it's more like problem-free after alochol indulgement; plus the company that i have i cannot complain any further.

: ))

can't wait for the hard partying, bold dancing and the reckless alcohol-fun tonight.

Friday Morning; i like the civilian air


it feels good to be free from any obligation and duties, especially that of the government organisation.
like, you finally have some freedom
and you can give that stupid smug and laugh at your friends who're doing duty now.

hahah.
but i am not that mean.

ah,
i went around scooping people's blog
and found sophia's blog.
HAHAH.
she's such a depressing girl, but then again
she sounds friendly
and quite act cute "ROXYDOLL_"
i can't imagine a 20 years old girl can write that
probably too lazy to change it!
but then again, she's got that high-class taitai feminine look.

i think i have something to look forward to going to church on sunday now.

i guess i have to try to look on the brighter side of life;
life's about making new connections and living the best;
at least i won't grumble about my day.
at least i won't do many things i would in the past.


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